My Shadows Aren't So Close

      Lately, I've been feeling like there's a shadow surrounding me. Every where I go, I just can't seem to put my heart into it. It's of course, because I'm fighting depression. The only time it seems to fade into the background is when my little Adrian is moving around. When he moves, I finally feel my heart fill up like it rarely does anymore. When I'm working, I have to take a moment to myself because I tried to talk, no words would come out. I'm laying on my bed now and he's moving. I can't believe he's real. It's extraordinary.

      Last night I got up and I felt like my side was lopsided. I ran my hand along my side and it was! He was curled against my side, making me feel very nonproportioned. My love, I'm not sure where I would be if you wouldn't have given me a child. Thankfully we had many months together of love because this child is definitely a love child.