Eating Your Placenta!... What?

      I just finished reading an article on my baby App and it explained to me many things I did not know.. Apparently people eat their placentas. Eat. Them. Okay, if you're one of the people that eat them. Kudos to you! My stomach is turning just thinking about it. It said that some women take it home, cut off the outsides and cook it just like any other meat. They then add it to chili, spaghetti, and other foods. Sorry article, you lost me at placenta spaghetti. 

     After that, the article explained that most women have I dehydrated and put into capsule form. The vitamins and such apparently help with PPD and milk production. Only that isn't scientifically proven. There's actually a lot of women out there who get sick from it. 

         Placenta Spaghetti.  *shivers*

Seriously, Boobs?

I am 23 weeks and 6 days. I'm pretty sure in the last two days, my boos have gained at least two pounds a piece. As I think I've said previously, I started at a 38D and now wear a 40E.. Which is too small now and I need to go up another size. I'm barely only halfway through the pregnancy. Come on, boobs. Slow down.

I'm back to work after a week vacation and the worst part is that I don't get to feel my baby move so much now that I'm constantly moving. Boo.

Happy Mother's Day!

     To every mother out, whether you already have a child, you're expecting one, or you lost them, happy Mother's Day! A lot of people don't consider you to be a 'mom' until your baby is here. Every mom knows out there that you're a mom as soon as you have the feelings of one.. Which definitely starts out in pregnancy. To every mom that has lost a child, my heart is with you. I know today , you wish you had your child with you, but someday you'll meet them. I know everyone has probably told you that.. But I firmly believe it. It doesn't make it easier but it should bring a bit of brightness into your life, knowing someday you'll meet them. To everyone out there with a child, keep your head up! I know parenting gets hard.. And you feel like you're just effing up nonstop.. But as long as you love your child, you're doing a great job.

      To every pregnant mother, first time or not, you get to spend today in one of the best parts of motherhood. Your baby is an actual part of you, and that to me is an awesome gift. I know I'm going to spend a lot of my day talking to my baby, and just resting my hands on my stomach to feel him!

    To my mother, you may have screwed me over and because of that many bad things have happened.. But that doesn't change how much I love you. Through the hell that has been our life, you've loved all your children with all your heart. Because of you, I've learned to love with my whole heart and be compassionate. Those are the two things that when I meet people, they seem to instantly know. It's brought a lot of good and bad people into my life, but it's worth it. I love you, mom! I'm so happy to have you as a mother!

     To any child celebrating Mother's Day without your mother, my best advice would be to not dwell on that. Today is the day to celebrate how amazing your mom is/was. Remember the good things. Remember the positivity brought into your life because of her.. And let me tell you.. As a soon to be mom.. If I died, I'd want to spend the rest of eternity watching over you. I'm sure your moms feel the same way.

       To the man I wish still wanted to be with me, the you that I loved, would be showering me with Iove today. Even your anger won't make me forget what it was like to be with you. Every day is hard, but today is harder because I know you would have made my day perfect. I hope you're thinking about me.

Sore Ribs

All day, my ribs have been killing me. I checked the symptom online and it seems that this usually happens in the 3rd trimester, but can happen halfway through your 2nd. I'm halfway through the 2nd. It's super painful and I find myself stretching out my body constantly to try and get away from the discomfort. 

       This sleepiness seems to be hitting me again. I'm fine from 6am-2pm.. But then I need a hardcore nap. I just don't enjoy napping, or I really don't have time to.. So sadly, sleep doesn't come to me. It's probably a good thing though because yesterday I actually got a nap but couldn't fall back to sleep later in the night.

Felt My Baby's Foot

       Last night, I was laying on my side/back, reading. I felt a sharp jab low on my abdomen, so I moved my hand down to rub that spot.. And felt a little ball! As soon as I started rubbing it, it moved away. My baby had kicked me and I felt his foot! His little tiny foot! How awesome is that? I love to feel him move. Before I started feeling him move, I had a very protective feeling over him.. But I didn't actually love him. That sounds bad, but to explain it to you, I didn't feel like I was actually pregnant before he started moving. Now that he's moving, he's so much more real to me. I'm falling in love, every time he moves. Even when he's squishing my bladder.

         Speaking of my bladder, I'm pretty sure Adrian's favorite games are: squish mom's bladder and jab-kick her and make her dance. Seriously. He's just so cute already. He's so spunky :)

My Son and My Nephew

       I am so very close to my nephew. He's my world, and in my heart, I see him as my son. I'm not sure what it's like for other people who have nieces and nephews.. I only have the one, but he is seriously my sunshine. I've been there for him ever since he was born. My sister in law always got mad because people thought he was my child, since we look alike and he doesn't look anything like his mom and dad. We also act alike. 

        Anyway, I was kind of worried about how he would react to my little Adrian. Would be jealous? Would he be like a big brother? Of course I can't tell yet, because my son is still inside me.. But so far my nephew has been amazing. He always asks how Adrian is after kissing my belly. He talks to him sometimes. He came to my house and saw a pair of baby shoes on my bookcase and said, oh my gosh! Adrian's baby shoes are so small and cute! Then before leaving, he hugged me, kisses my belly.. And thanked me for making a baby. 

        Some days are hard for me to see a bright spot in the future.. But when I'm with my nephew, he brings that brightness back into view.

My Baby Bump in Question

      Four different people came up to me and told me how small I am to be 5 1/2 months. One of my managers even had the nerve to ask if I was really pregnant. What do I even say to that? Oh.. You think I've just been eating a bunch of twinkies and gained all the weight just in my belly? I'm 5 1/2 months and everyone around me is saying how small I am. Two weeks ago, I was so excited because I finally had, what I thought was a 'baby bump'. Apparently I'm the only one to see it. I'm even wearing maternity clothing so I can flaunt it.

      Before pregnancy, I fluctuated in weight between 205-212. I'm 5'10". I worked out a lot. I didn't have any bulk muscles, but they were all very firm. Especially my legs and abs. As a large framed person, I can't ever seem to drop below 200lbs. It's not a big deal, because I thought I looked great. 

     I haven't kept up with any workout during this pregnancy because I was so afraid of pushing too hard. When I go to the gym, it's what I'm used to doing. Pushing myself. I've still been exercising, just not anything with weights. So I had nice tight abs, a long torso, and what everyone has always called 'mother bearing hips'. They're not huge, you can just tell my hips were meant to hold a baby. So of course, I have a bunch of room for my baby to grow before I'm showing too much.

       Don't get me wrong, I would absolutely loooove to have those baby bumps that everyone else has! They're just so cute! I know I'll pop sometime in the next few months.. I just wish people wouldn't put me down because I'm not big enough in their eyes.