Pregnancy Mood Swing Hell

     I went to make French fries and dippy eggs for breakfast. No, this is not a pregnancy thing. I've always eaten them. Anyway, I put the fries in the oven and when they were almost done I went to grab the eggs. I knew there were two left, so I thought, perfect! Well, not so perfect. They had both been smashed in on a side. There's nothing else for breakfast here that won't make me nauseated. My mom offered to go to the store and grab eggs.. But by the time she comes back, my fries will be cold and if I had to microwave them? They'd get soggy. Soggy fries and dippy eggs are disgusting. 

      I'm absolutely pissed and feel like crying.

       Oh, hormones.

Feeling Nastalgia

     I'm halfway through my pregnancy and I'm already missing it. I just keep thinking, I know this pregnancy has been physically and emotionally draining, but I am going to miss my child moving around inside of me. I can feel him moving around right now, and it makes my heart lighter. I know, it'll be even better when he's here.. But I'm still going to miss this feeling. 

     On a darker note, I really wish that my full time job paid me a wage I can actually live on so I can get my own place. There's tons of options for a single mom, I'm just not sure what they are yet. I'm not comfortable living with my mother, stepfather. And little sister: they drive me insane and can sometimes feel overbearing. I know they love me, but right now I feel smothered. I need some advice. What do I do next?

Mood swings from H*ll

Fo your information, they were not lying about the mood swings that occur while pregnant. I am a very patient, thoughtful, kind person. My gosh.  Right now? I have no patience. I snap on people a lot. I am thoughtful but sometimes it makes me mad to be so. Then I feel bad about feelin that way and get all sad. Yes, hormones are wonderful.

    It IS funny. When you're not on the receiving end. I laugh afterwards, sometimes. Some people think it's nice to see me be so forward. I'd rather be laid back and kind, but for now I'm trying to find an okay balance.

      I know I said my nausea went away, but apparently I lied. I did not mean to lie. I was hoping not to be lying....

    But it came back. Thankfully, I can go a day or two without growing up! This is great!

      I also have a bit more energy than before.

    I think I felt my baby move! :)